Just thinking back to when I was in Miami and I decided to brave the bus on my own. It got about half an hour into my journey until I realised I was going the wrong way. I was too embarrassed to get up in front of everyone so I sat for about an hour until there was no one else on the bus. It took me twice as long to get to where I needed to go because I put too much emphasis on what other people would think, rather than doing what was best for me. I learnt that sometimes it’s the things which we don’t say and don’t do, that have more of an impact than the things which we do. There’s no need to travel down a road that leads to a place you no longer want to go! It may be easier at the time to sit back and go with the flow, but every minute you spend doing things you don’t enjoy is another minute you are missing out on doing the things you love. It’s never too late to get off that bus, and it’s ok to need a little help or guidance along the way!! :’)
Looking back at my diary from the beginning of the year and seeing that my main goal was to get a job as a mental health care assistant. Continue reading
Today I am accepting full responsibility for my actions, or rather my lack of them. I really wanted something, but the truth is I wasn’t prepared to work for it and I didn’t put the effort in. Now I have to learn the hard way. Holding my hands up and admitting you could have tried harder is the hardest thing. But what’s most important is that you don’t give in. I’ll try again but this time with the desire and the drive to win.
This time I’m all in.